I have been quite reserved to post a photo wearing less than full clothing, but with friends doing it and sharing their more than inspirational experiences, I feel like I too can reveal myself.
At 16, I didn't look past the scale when it said 186, but my assumption was that it didn't get any better that following summer. (To put me into perspective, my boyfriend was 6'8, at least 325+. Referring to another photo).
Less than 2 years later, I figured out that losing weight in an unhealthy way, would not do. It landed me in the hospital, to which I lied to my parent, as to the reason why I was there. I knew I couldn't lie to myself.
It takes a lot of practice, experimentation, honesty but I knew that if I wanted to look like what I do now, it would take a lifestyle and lifetime commitment.
In 2002, I felt the first time that I understood what it meant to bring all aspects of health together as I felt the success.
2003, I had my daughter, I reached a lovely, and comfortable 206 lbs! The process is not always easy and we fall into old habits and ways; hopefully, overtime, our consciousness will not allow or accept personal untruths.
19 years later and in this case, enjoying food, self, the simple fact that I have a body that I can use, have full function of my life and limbs, I will use them. Until they retire.
Per our original ideals, just because I wanted to look this way on the outside, at that time, I didn't know that it was how I understood and felt about myself that would get my body here.
As I am honest with myself about what works and doesn't, my body has decided to do this. Apparently, because I enjoy the food, the exercise, my lifestyle, this is what I get on the outside.
I just pray , that the inside is truly doing just as well;-)
(insert X-ray vision here!)